Dear Blog....- ,-

Hmmmmh...
Blog, I want to share my mind with you.

Do you know the word spell: G.A.L.A.U???
Yes, say that in Indonesia style, not the English one.
That is a booming word nowadays among Indonesian teens.

When they have something wrong with their boy/ girlfriend,
they will update : GALAU at their Facebook status.

When they want to have an entertainment, they can switch the TV
into one of the channels, provides GALAU joking.

When they are in the unpredictable situation, they will say:
Bro, sista, I'm GALAU.

So, what its GALAU itself???

I don't know.

I can't explain it to you, Blog. But when I feel it, I can express it.

And that's what I feel tonight.
Suddenly, what I've tried to built in my deeply self since 1 week ago,
a little bit got a storm.
-Whatever, I prefer to call it with my strenght-.

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Blog,...
do you know about my story from July, August, September, October,
'till today? November, 18th 2011??

I'm sure you know me so well.

And it'll be a 'peak of curve'on December, when some decissions
have to be taken again.
After I'm already cooled down in Malang for the last 1 week, I must to make
my own decission.

Between school and what I dreamt of.
Between family and what I will be.
Between city and country.

It's not about journey around the world,
but it more relates with what I've did.

It's not about going overseas,
but it more to show about our continous effort and existance.

It's not about pending my college,
but it more about what kind of woman am I in the future.

Blog,...
I realize, nothing to be dissappointed of.
Eventhough lota people in my surroundings are wondering
and say:
What?? Are you kidding or crazy??
how about your school?..
will you pospone it again next semester??!!

Unbelieveable, that what I got from their voice.

Sometimes, I feel annoyed and bored to tell the others about what actually
have been happened.
But, I do really want to tell them the chronical and let them make their own
conclusion.

Even my parents.
I told my Mom about me, my team, and the 'thief'.
But, I don't know, whether she recognice it or not.

Moreover, my dad.
Seems like he doesn't know yet how this can be happened to us.
I just say: the 'thief' want to take over our plan.

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And I remember, I still have my God, Allah SWT.
Last night, I try to browse via google and type: ISTIKHARAH in the search engine.
I've ever learnt about the pray, but I can't remember it because it's too long.

A meaningful pray comes from ISTIKHARAH essential.
It offer us occupation to say what we want to have, although sometimes
it dissapear because of X factor.
But,
the goodness of this pray is we have to believe about what we want, say it
through praying, and do it!

Last paragraph of the pray teach us about giving back all of the things that
we've did to Allah.
If it's good for us and give us positive benefit, so let Allah make it closer.
But if it's bad, then let Allah delete it from our live plan.

By ISTIKHARAH, then no more GALAU. Hopefully....

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Yeeeaaaah!!
Finally,
everything just give it back to our creature.
He know the best for us.
I do belive, 'the best' is not always same with what we ask.
But 'the best' is what will be enough for us.

Blog,
anyway,
You have to be exist!

If I meet your creature or manager, I want to request that YOU have to be existed forever!
Please friend me and save my thought in your great page.
You are my everything.

Love you, Blog.